I promise.
I really do.
See, this
But for now, an admission.
Yes, really.
I admit I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. The first week home I'm sure I ran on pure adrenaline. And then the second week I finally got some sleep and we sorta found a new 'normal'. And now that we begin the third week home, I'm ...well, wishing I had the adrenaline back.
Anyone who knows me knows how much of a home body I am. I mean, I love venturing out to my big kids' sporting events, although I've missed the majority of softball and baseball games due to a combination of weather and the Krowd I run with. But I digress.
Mostly, the reality has set in because of the number of appointments we have each week. Leave early, get back late, take 3 little girls everywhere. And then the laundry. I mean, these people just keep changing clothes :) And the meals, and dishes and the homework and yada yada. I'm not upset, I'm not complaining, and I'm not asking for pity. I'm simply admitting that I'm so much less than I want to be.
I haven't even started back to work yet. At this point I can't imagine adding another thing to my day. The beauty of my work is that I get to act like a professional a couple times a week, and then I get to be casual, completing my work at home the rest of the week. But working from home is not what it used to be :) I can squeeze in a few minutes here and there between feeding the troops, laundry, potty breaks, laundry, therapy, laundry, changing diapers, laundry, planning meals, laundry, homework and laundry.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say in all this mess is we would appreciate your prayers! I know many of you pray for our family regularly, and that is such a blessing! We have some specific decisions to make (no, it's not about adoption). As a couple, we want to have our priorities straight and keep our focus on what really matters. It is so easy for me to become distracted. So if you would pray for us, I would be so grateful!
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Heb 12:1-2
Prayers for the season of re-entry with a new sister. Yah, laundry, I got that. The balance is hard and I personally appreciate your honesty here. I agree with you, it's all GOOD but it's still a lot.
ReplyDeleteJennifer, I know that you know what I'm talking about! It's all good, but it's so much. Most days I handle it just fine, but every now and then I hit a wall. And I really want to be joyful in even the mundane things, if you know what I mean :)
ReplyDeleteI hear you girl - i hit my wall this past week - being sick doesn't help! Today the gang is cleaning! Thank God!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you already do this, but just in case: my life changed dramatically once I had the big kids putting away all kid laundry. Changed my life for the better! I'm even considering have them put mine and my husband's laundry away too. After all, I do the laundry, shouldn't someone else put it away?
ReplyDeleteI only have 4 plus one from China coming next year and I feel like you! I will send prayers your way!
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you Connie! I love you! You are a wonderful wife, mother, and friend....and when you are weak, HE is strong! You are just leaning on the Lord's strength and He is carrying you!! One moment at a time!
ReplyDeleteI am amazed by all you do! I don't do half of that and still feel over whelmed some days! Give yourself at least 2 more weeks to get over jet lag!! seriously! You are still NOT back to "normal". You have so many precious needy people demanding your time and attention.......it's just plain HARD most days. Be kind to yourself:) I Love the verse at the bottom of your post. Don't know you but love following your journey:)
ReplyDeleteBlessings on your day today! Prayers going up for you now.
Mom! Post the update already! I gave you like a bathousand pictures! Puuuleeeease!!!!!
ReplyDeleteLove you,
KJ